Yeah i just woke up from my sleep. Wishing would dream great but yet, it turns out to be a Nightmare for me. It's been the past few days which i'm starting to have Nightmares. Not about ghosts chasing after me, killing me. But Nightmares of HIM! Not about you okay Twinnie Love :)

It's almost a year now since it happens. But whatever shit he did to me are still lingering around in my mind. Whenever i started to sit and doing nothing, these shits will just pop-ed up in my head. And it's like FUCK! Why am i thinking of those shits which has already happens. Even i sleep i kept having to think of it and even when i woke up. Why should i be thinking of these fucking stuffs i shouldn't ? It's getting hard for me to NOT think of it now since it's still lingering in my mind. Haiz. Not returning what i want, Not giving faces, Not giving Second chances, Abusings, Scoldings, Vulgarities. What's all these SHIT ? Where's the Love & Care when i was with him ? What type of boyfriend is that ? Eventhough he can be so Loving, there's a FUCKING EVIL BEAST in him which he can't get rid of. He's used to Abusing Ladies who are not to be blame in the first place. Hey c'mon, ladies are fragile. So what's the use of saying I LOVE YOU yet doing the evil deeds over and over again huh ? Think about that for a moment. Being with him for a year really are Nightmares. Haiz. Why in the first place am i attached to him ? I shouldn't. But it happened, i can't still forget it. It disturbs me. It haunts me! Why is that happening at this stage of my life ?! Can't even Love someone else after leaving him for almost a year. Hey at least it's almost a year before i Love someone else. Expect me to wait for him. Until when ? Parents don't approved of me being with him, why should i ? I know it's up to me to decide the Love of my Life although parents plays an important role in knowing it too. But him ? No way am i going to wait my whole life for. Not even for a minute! I love him NO MORE!

Please just go away Fucking Nightmares. What's the use of coming back to me where the past has passed ? Just Leave my Fucking Life alone. Don't ever come back!!

I'm trying my best to leave everything, as much as i can. Having Twinnie to always be there for me really feels great. My friends too. Esp my dearest best of friends;
-Efah
-Ezad
-Nano
-Min
-Syafiq
And i won't ever forget these people, including dearest Twinnie :D
Hugs & Kisses!

And i guess i'll be breaking my fast alone today outside. Due to Kelvin not around and due to having class at 0745pm. Family will be breaking their fast at Aunt's place. So yeah,i'll be alone breaking fast today. Don't know if friends wanna break fast with me. Asked them alr but, it's okay. Won't trouble my friends :D Take Care. Enjoy your day dearest Bloggers.

Syasya Miller Outz~!